June 22, 2017
So I am looking at my post about health and diet I wrote two years ago! I cannot believe it. I felt stuck and powerless in losing weight, and finally for the first time in my life I feel like I am on fire with confidence, and it feels amazing!
I for sure still doubt myself, but then I try and remind myself to listen to my heart, not my negative thoughts.
So, you will not believe this, but I….signed up for a Werq Fitness Instructor certification. I am nowhere near what it takes to be a fitness instructor, especially a fitness instructor teaching hip hop dancing. But…for some reason, my heart was tugging for me to sign up for this course. So, instead of listening to all of the reasons in my head why it was a bad idea…I counted backwards 5,4,3,2,1 and I paid for the course, and now I have three weeks to learn three dance routines for the training. For sure I am uncomfortable, a million doubts, but then I say nice things to myself, like
You can do this. For some reason, you felt inclined to do this. So do it. Maybe I will end up a hip hop dance instructor after not really ever dancing in my life, maybe I will meet someone I am supposed to meet, maybe I will learn that little steps must be faced with bravery before major accomplishments are achieved. Maybe I will learn how to stand tall, when I feel like shrinking in a room of fit dancers. I am not sure why my heart tugged me to sign up. But it did.
So, even though it makes me feel so uncomfortable. I am doing it anyway, and I am reminding my negative thoughts, and doubts they don’t get to run the show in my life anymore!
I trust myself, and I live LARGE. I listen to my heart, and act quickly before my doubts convince me not too.
I really want to change how I eat. But it is pretty damn hard.
I use food to numb the shitty emotions (excuse my language, but it really is the best way to express it) so I don’t have to feel them. Basically, I snuggle up with a pint of my favorite ice cream, and usher those negative feelings away.
I am going to do my best to eat when I am hungry and stop when I am full.
I am reading the following books and I think they are helpful about eating and diet on Audible.com.
- The Tapping Solution for Weight Loss and Body Confidence by Jessica Ortner
- Intuitive Eating by Evelyn Tribole and Elyse Resch
- The Happiness Project by Gretchen Rubin
- Stop Eating Your Heart Out by Meryl Hershey Beck, MA, M.Ed., LPCC
- Fat Chance by Robert H. Lustig, M.D.